Jane’s negative self-esteem kept her in a black cloud of depression. She took medication to dampen the symptoms, saw a counselor to help her deal with her everyday life, and met with her pastor every month to bring the word of God into her depression. All this moved her from a black cloud to a grey cloud, but a cloud nevertheless. Though she had incorporated the healing components of body, soul, and spirit, her healing was incomplete. What more could she do?
Then Jane read my book, Too Late in the Afternoon: One Man’s Triumph Over Depression, and called me to coach her to triumph over her depression. I found a psychotherapist who was certified in Theophostic Prayer Ministry, and she was able to see Jane that very day.
The therapist guided Jane back into
the early years of her life and assisted her in finding the guardian lie that led to all the other lies in her life.
When Jane was six years old, her mother told her she wished Jane had never been born and wanted nothing to do with her. The mother arranged for her sister to take over the care of Jane, and there Jane stood one late afternoon in front of her aunt’s house, suitcase in hand, watching her mother drive off as the door was opened for her to start a new life. Her aunt, not very pleased with having her niece dumped off, was cruel to Jane and let her know at most every turn how worthless she was. Jane had suppressed these memories until the therapist brought a light into her dark past.
Under further questioning, Jane was able to uncover the lie that Satan had planted in her heart some thirty years previously. “You are on your own; no one wants you; you are an inferior person.” Once Jane was able to identify the lie she had been carrying within her most of her life, the therapist asked who was there with her when she was standing on the doorstep. Jane said, “No one. It was only me.” The therapist asked if she was sure of that. Suddenly Jane’s eyes brightened. “Why, Jesus was there with me.”
The therapist continued, “That’s God speaking the truth to you. Now go back to the picture of the little girl on the doorstep and ask Jesus what he has to say to her then and to you now.”
There was quiet in the room for more than five minutes, and then Jane blurted out, “Jesus says He had tears in His eyes when my mother abandoned me and I had infinite worth and value in His eyes then and still do now as a grown woman. He wants me to experience His love from this time forward and be free of Satan’s lies. The truth is that I’m a child of God and the equal of His other daughters and sons.”
Jane wept for almost a half hour in the psychotherapist’s office and left feeling at peace for the first time in her life because she knew Jesus loved her. There were follow-up visits to uncover other lies in Jane’s life related to the guardian lie, and they were likewise replaced by God’s truth.
Jane is a composite of several people I have coached, all on the path of triumphing over their depression. For the purpose of confidentiality, I did not want to focus entirely on one person.