141. What Depression is Like – Kinda

I am writing this blog on Friday, November 16. This has been a depressing week, in the general sense of the word, for I have not been depressed in the clinical sense of the word.

On Monday, the flu descended on me with a dull thump. As the saying goes, I was sicker than a dog. As the flu started to abate on Wednesday, I was the victim of a second thumping – one of the worst colds I have ever had. On a wellness scale of 1 to 10, I was a 3 at best. To compound matters, I slept dreadfully Wednesday night and awoke Thursday morning in a fog.

The result of this onslaught was that I could not think clearly, had a fever and headaches, and had the energy level of a malnourished and sickly ant. I ached with each step. I moaned with each small task. I just wanted people to leave me alone.  That’s when I thought, “This is like the depression I went through for five years.”

Not a chance! It isn’t even close. There were times in my clinical depression when I was at a -10 on the wellness scale, maybe even a -20 at times. There were literally times when I didn’t know who I was.

Those of you who have experienced major depression know what I’m talking about. For those who haven’t, perhaps my recent illustration will give you a new framework for understanding the condition.

Don’t worry about me now. Today I’m up to a 5 and getting better each hour. Next week I’ll be up to an 8 or 9. Flu and colds pass quickly; depression can linger for a long time – for me five years, for others a lifetime.

About Patrick Day

triumphoverdepression.org This blog is my ministry to support those who are depressed, in gratefulness for my having overcome major depression. Read "About Patrick Day" just to the right of "home" on the top of the blog site to find out more particulars about me. I retired from a career in higher education, where I served as Dean of Instruction, and promptly moved into a life of purposelessness and despair for five years, finally coming out on the other side. I am now an author, a business and life coach, a writer of this blog, and a volunteer for various organizations. What I write about in this blog is not hypothetical comments on depression. I have been there, felt the horrible pain, had my life disrupted, and experienced everything that I write about. I pray that I may be a blessing to you.
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One Response to 141. What Depression is Like – Kinda

  1. Bob says:

    I understand. I’m just ending my second week of what you have. Add a gut leval cough on my side. Your right though, it does get better. You cross my mind often when I am looking for encouragement. Our conversations bring lots of tools and hope to my down times. Thanks for your friendship.
    Bob

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