In Psalm 38, David was downcast, discouraged, and without strength; he had reached the edge of the pit. “I am bowed down and brought very low; all day long I go about mourning…I am feeble and utterly crushed; I groan in anguish of heart…My heart pounds, my strength fails me; even the light has gone from my eyes.”
David is describing what many of us have experienced when depressed: the relentless attack of the spirit of hopelessness and discouragement. In his depression, he felt what many Christians have felt – that God was punishing him for the sins of his past. But this is a lie of Satan, who tempts us to believe we’ve brought God’s wrath on ourselves by not measuring up to His holy standards.
In 2 Corinthians 2:11, Paul writes, “…in order that Satan might not outwit us. For we are not unaware of his schemes.” Paul is saying that such lies of accusation and discouragement are a demonic attack to persuade you to doubt yourself. He swamps you with lies to make you so downcast you’ll want to throw in the towel. Don’t believe those lies.
There is an old saying I keep coming back to in my own life. “He knows the worst about you and He loves you just the same. There’s only one who loves like that, and Jesus in His name.” Then there’s the old song featured in Billy Graham’s crusades – Just as I am.
God loves you just the way you are. Don’t ever, ever believe God wants you to feel helpless and distraught. Call out to Him, and He will rescue you, perhaps not right away but in His timetable. For me, it was a five-year journey, though He always brought relief just as I was going over the edge of the pit. It was a tough journey, but Christ was always by me, and now I have been free of depression for over two years.