In the summer of 2010, I had been sleeping badly and the spirit of depression sought to reclaim what it felt to be its rightful place. On a bright day on the outside but a gloomy day on the inside, I was attending a meeting in Minneapolis, a day that seemed like a week. Those of you who have been deeply depressed know what I mean.
On my way home, I was so terribly depressed that I stumbled down into our lower level and collapsed on a love seat. Unable to pray, I called out to Jesus for mercy. I did not hear an audible response, but from deep within my spirit, I heard a still, small voice that I knew was the Spirit of Jesus. “Stay out of your mind. I am in your spirit. My presence is all you need.”
Those words were an immediate elixir that transformed me out of a relapse of depression into an inner calm and trust that God was going to take care of me. His words pinpointed my problem. I was listening to the fears and discouragement in my own mind and accepting the emotion of discouragement. I backed away from all the negativity and ruminating on how awful my life was and rested in the Spirit of God living in my spirit, and the relapse of depression was lifted, never to return up to this day. Will the depression ever return? Perhaps, but I have God’s assurance that He will bring me out of it.