154. The Grace of God

In the summer of 2010, I had been sleeping badly and the spirit of depression sought to reclaim what it felt to be its rightful place. On a bright day on the outside but a gloomy day on the inside, I was attending a meeting in Minneapolis, a day that seemed like a week. Those of you who have been deeply depressed know what I mean.

On my way home, I was so terribly depressed that I stumbled down into our lower level and collapsed on a love seat. Unable to pray, I called out to Jesus for mercy. I did not hear an audible response, but from deep within my spirit, I heard a still, small voice that I knew was the Spirit of Jesus. “Stay out of your mind. I am in your spirit. My presence is all you need.”

Those words were an immediate elixir that transformed me out of a relapse of depression into an inner calm and trust that God was going to take care of me. His words pinpointed my problem. I was listening to the fears and discouragement in my own mind and accepting the emotion of discouragement. I backed away from all the negativity and ruminating on how awful my life was and rested in the Spirit of God living in my spirit, and the relapse of depression was lifted, never to return up to this day. Will the depression ever return? Perhaps, but I have God’s assurance that He will bring me out of it.

About Patrick Day

In 2010, I escaped from four long years of deep, dark depression. This blog shares lessons I learned from those years as depicted in my autobiography - How I Escaped from Depression - as well as other insights about depression and anxiety that only come from someone who has gone through it. When you have a heart attack, you become an expert in heart attacks. When you have diabetes, you become an expert in that condition. As such, I am an expert in depression, with a four-year experiential degree and graduate studies in how to live a life going forward that keeps the ever-lurking Depression at a healthy distance.
This entry was posted in Living a Spiritual Life. Bookmark the permalink.

1 Response to 154. The Grace of God

  1. Ruth Bjornson says:

    THIS is TRUTH … all from Him with our “adding nothing to His finished works”. If it’s not out of, from, and of Him — it’s not worth the attention, effort or energy.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s