A continuation of the previous blog.
In the fall of 2010, after six months of poor sleeping that was edging me into depression again, I had lost hold of Jeremiah 29:11. I did not trust that God had plans to prosper me and not to harm me. Romans 8:28 – And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God – rang hollow in my mind and emotions.
I called up my brother Bill in despair, and he said to me, “Pat, you don’t really trust God to take care of you. You believe it in your mind, but the truth of God’s promises has not filtered down into your heart, the core of your being.”
“How do I learn to trust God?” I responded. Bill replied, “Trusting God is not a global thing, where you decide to trust God once and for all. It is a moment by moment exercise.”
There it was: an answer I could understand. That very day I talked to Bill, I started a journal of the times in my life when God answered my prayer and the events in my life which proved I could trust God. Here is an entry for November 12, 2010: “Last night I slept the best I have in six months, from 10 p.m. to 8 a.m. I can trust Him.” Exactly two years later, November 18, 2012, I wrote in the journal: “Last Monday I contracted the flu, which turned into a horrible cold on Thursday. I lost my voice on a shopping trip with my wife in St. Cloud. All this time, looming before me, was a book presentation to give Saturday morning, lunch with a good friend following that, and a concert Saturday night with friends. I slept well Thursday and Friday evenings and I made it through all of Saturday’s events, and slept well last night. All this by God’s grace. I can trust Him.”