164. Back from the Valley of the Shadow of Death

Last week Monday I came down with one of the worst colds of my life. I thought briefly of calling it my worst cold, but one must be careful with superlatives.

My body experienced most of the symptoms of  the season’s flu, and perhaps I had that affliction as well. My head felt like a pillow filled with sleet. I couldn’t breathe through my nose and encountered five nights of sleeplessness, followed by five days of deepening depression.

All the manifestations of depression came knocking at my door: self-pity, hopelessness, confusion, thoughts of death, negative thinking, worst-case-scenarios, a predicted life of on-going mental anguish, the whole routine. These old friends frightened me. I was at the edge of the pit.

Then my wife encouraged me, “Of course you’re depressed. Who wouldn’t be? But you’ll get better. This isn’t permanent.” I needed those words. I immediately turned my thinking away from my deplorable condition and to the mercy of God, asking Him, “What do you want me to learn from this terrible cold?” I expect you’re wondering what His answer was, but that is much too personal to share with anyone. I became filled with His love and with hope for the rest of my life. I had come back from the valley of the shadow of death.

About Patrick Day

triumphoverdepression.org This blog is my ministry to support those who are depressed, in gratefulness for my having overcome major depression. Read "About Patrick Day" just to the right of "home" on the top of the blog site to find out more particulars about me. I retired from a career in higher education, where I served as Dean of Instruction, and promptly moved into a life of purposelessness and despair for five years, finally coming out on the other side. I am now an author, a business and life coach, a writer of this blog, and a volunteer for various organizations. What I write about in this blog is not hypothetical comments on depression. I have been there, felt the horrible pain, had my life disrupted, and experienced everything that I write about. I pray that I may be a blessing to you.
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