174. Stops and Starts

An entry from my journal on February 1, 2007, one week after I had changed psychiatrists and was meeting almost daily with a psychotherapist.

“This depression is worse than anything I had thought. My thinking is so distorted, I don’t know how it can ever change. I am living in a nightmare.”

I learned so much in three weeks with the psychotherapist, and the new psychiatrist treated me as a person and not as a body to experiment on with “witches’ brew,” as my previous psychiatrist called the concoctions he was prescribing for me.

What I learned is that I needed to work on four stops and four starts.

The four stops:

  • Stop inordinately thinking about myself all the time.
  • Stop trying to figure everything out.
  • Stop defending myself.
  • Stop always needing to be right.

The four starts:

  • Start giving up obsessive control over my own life and the lives of others.
  • Start being less intense and more laid back.
  • Start replacing excessive pride with humility.
  • Start accepting the universe.

One doesn’t make such drastic changes in a day…or even a year. It took three years to incorporate the stops and starts into my life on a consistent basis, until I could finally say, “I have triumphed over depression.”

About Patrick Day

triumphoverdepression.org This blog is my ministry to support those who are depressed, in gratefulness for my having overcome major depression. Read "About Patrick Day" just to the right of "home" on the top of the blog site to find out more particulars about me. I retired from a career in higher education, where I served as Dean of Instruction, and promptly moved into a life of purposelessness and despair for five years, finally coming out on the other side. I am now an author, a business and life coach, a writer of this blog, and a volunteer for various organizations. What I write about in this blog is not hypothetical comments on depression. I have been there, felt the horrible pain, had my life disrupted, and experienced everything that I write about. I pray that I may be a blessing to you.
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2 Responses to 174. Stops and Starts

  1. Bob says:

    Great, More tools for my tool box. Knowing you now it’s hard sometimes for me to picture you in such a deep state of depression. Praise God we can recover from our Hurts, Habbits and Hang-ups. .

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