When we are depressed or otherwise in darkness, our mind, emotions, and will are all focused on us. I knew this in depression and knew that focusing on myself almost exclusively was not healthy.
This self-centeredness persisted until I finally learned through affliction to put myself in His hands and let Him have His way with me. Close fellowship with Jesus Christ meant that I followed Him and His interests in other people. This was in stark contrast to my previous prayer of asking Him to be with me, following along like a faithful puppy to make sure I was healthy, wealthy, and wise.
When I started focusing on God and my desire to be His hands and feet in this world, my depression started to dissipate. Today I am not totally free of depression all the time, but it’s manageable, because I know I’m in His hands and that what is happening to me may not be pleasant on occasion, but He is with me every step of the way.