279. I Give Up

Giving Up“He must become greater; I must become less.” – John 3:30
One day, in the midst of my Great Depression, the Holy Spirit prompted me to ask, “Who is in charge of my life, God or me?” Intellectually I said, “Well, God is.” But my thinking and actions were all about me – my pain, my desire to rid myself of all the symptoms of depression, my wanting to die, my this, and my that. I prayed earnestly for one or another of these outcomes a hundred times a day.
As I realized how hopeless it was for me to control the condition I was in, I threw my hands up in the air and yelled, “I give up!” Though I could not see it visually or hear it audible, yet in the imagination God created me with I saw His face smiling and heard these words, “It’s about time; I’ll take over.” From that moment, I started to get better.

About Patrick Day

triumphoverdepression.org This blog is my ministry to support those who are depressed, in gratefulness for my having overcome major depression. Read "About Patrick Day" just to the right of "home" on the top of the blog site to find out more particulars about me. I retired from a career in higher education, where I served as Dean of Instruction, and promptly moved into a life of purposelessness and despair for five years, finally coming out on the other side. I am now an author, a business and life coach, a writer of this blog, and a volunteer for various organizations. What I write about in this blog is not hypothetical comments on depression. I have been there, felt the horrible pain, had my life disrupted, and experienced everything that I write about. I pray that I may be a blessing to you.
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2 Responses to 279. I Give Up

  1. Patrick Day says:

    To know that He cares enough about me to communicate with me is humbling.

  2. mlsahlberg says:

    I appreciate the honest account of your personal experience and the clarity God’s voice brings to your experience. Your words are encouraging because I have experienced similar thoughts and a similar response from God. It is hard to believe at times that God would speak to any individual, let alone me, but He does. I am deeply grateful that He does, as I know you are too.

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