279. I Give Up

Giving Up“He must become greater; I must become less.” – John 3:30
One day, in the midst of my Great Depression, the Holy Spirit prompted me to ask, “Who is in charge of my life, God or me?” Intellectually I said, “Well, God is.” But my thinking and actions were all about me – my pain, my desire to rid myself of all the symptoms of depression, my wanting to die, my this, and my that. I prayed earnestly for one or another of these outcomes a hundred times a day.
As I realized how hopeless it was for me to control the condition I was in, I threw my hands up in the air and yelled, “I give up!” Though I could not see it visually or hear it audible, yet in the imagination God created me with I saw His face smiling and heard these words, “It’s about time; I’ll take over.” From that moment, I started to get better.

About Patrick Day

In 2010, I escaped from four long years of deep, dark depression. This blog shares lessons I learned from those years as depicted in my autobiography - How I Escaped from Depression - as well as other insights about depression and anxiety that only come from someone who has gone through it. When you have a heart attack, you become an expert in heart attacks. When you have diabetes, you become an expert in that condition. As such, I am an expert in depression, with a four-year experiential degree and graduate studies in how to live a life going forward that keeps the ever-lurking Depression at a healthy distance.
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2 Responses to 279. I Give Up

  1. Patrick Day says:

    To know that He cares enough about me to communicate with me is humbling.

  2. mlsahlberg says:

    I appreciate the honest account of your personal experience and the clarity God’s voice brings to your experience. Your words are encouraging because I have experienced similar thoughts and a similar response from God. It is hard to believe at times that God would speak to any individual, let alone me, but He does. I am deeply grateful that He does, as I know you are too.

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