“Who are you, Lord?” Paul asked on the road to Damascus in Acts 9. This was in response to the voice of Jesus: “Saul, Saul, why do you persecute me?” Five verses later, the Lord spoke to Ananias, and he answered, “Yes, Lord.” The one answered God’s question with a question and the other with humble submission.
As I stumbled and bumbled through four years of depression, I often asked the wrong question: “Why are You persecuting me, Lord?” I was not responding to God but shouting in the wilderness with no one to hear me. It didn’t happen all at once, but eventually I opened the door of my soul to God’s question: “Are you willing to follow me even in the darkest of depression?” I answered, “Yes, Lord,” and finally followed Him no matter the circumstances or afflictions. I was willing to serve Him in depression for the rest of my life, but He chose to heal me, not because I deserved it but because He’s merciful.